Voyage to nowhere

wrote these lyrics on the bus.. kinda reflects the apparently destination-less journey i find myself on..

Bus stops passin by,
Snow drifts sit there numb,
Snow to ice, ice to fluid,
That’s all that changes, everthin else... dumb.

From Bexleyheath to Blue Water,
Into the gorge took a long glance,
Thought time’d pass faster.
Naah.. not a fuckin chance.

A yob climbs up, an old hog steps down,
Tears from the concrete are now just an icicle,
All I see clearly are sheets of snow,
The mighty buses are not just a dusty speckle.

Jigsaw

Moments knit together make ‘er up,
All’s a complicated web..
But none of the pieces fall into place
Life happens .. it sux..
the guidelines quote
‘Not suitable for adults’

They’re all just pieces
And parts make a whole
But what r u aiming for?
The final picture’s unknown, unclear,
No fuckin idea where to steer.

Started from the corners
And worked into the centre
But you’re more lost than ever
Scrambled them all up
Get outta my head,
Shut up shut up shut up!

Hangover

Hangover..
Was a good sober day;
Was slave to none
Nothing was strong enough
Neither whiskey, vodka nor rum
But when I met you,
The damage was done.

Knowing you and spending time with you
Was all a different high,
Forget walking straight,
Mind, body and soul,
All were drop dead sloshed

The concept of a happy high seemed crap,
when it was time to say goodbye.
Moments afterwards were no better
Seemed like a fucked up hangover,

The morning I woke up;
Couldn’t believe how fast the time had passed,
Seemed like a binge of recklessness,
Dunno where I lost you,
Was it the nice things I did,
Or the way I understood you.
Could’ve been how I loved you,
Or how I was always there..

But that doesn’t matter anymore.
Coz am now jus’ a bottle on the sidewalk,
Rolling away without a care.
The hangover’s passed,
And am high ..on life.

I ain't sorry

The 1st lyrics i ever wrote... here goes..

Staring into the darkness,
Listening to the silence,
I realised a lot of things I’ve done
Few mistakes I’ve made
Lots of things that I’ve said;
Things I wish I could change
For all of them...I’m sorry.

Of all that I’ve done;
I regret many things..
But one step I took was to fall for u.
For that I ain’t sorry,
Coz I couldn’t help it.
It wasn’t me.. it was you.

I dunno where it happened
If it was your smile,
Or the way we connected
Mayb it was just you..
And for that.. i’m not sorry.

I’m not sorry you’re so great.
Not sorry you’re so perfect.
The moment you smiled all I knew was bliss.
But when u said no .. a part in me broke away.

Pain

Pain is a strange feeling.. Everyone experiences it but one thing common to most people who do is that its caused because of a certain person.. not necessarily because of what a person did but even because of what might have happened to someone you know( obviously someone you care about).. So one thing I realize that MOSTLY the cause of pain is that you care for someone and something unpleasant happens that affects in some way you and/or that person .. Another thing I've seen is that if you're in pain one thing u usually feel is that your pain is more than anyone else's. I beg to differ.. completely.. There's always someone who's worse off than you are so self pity does anything but help... in fact it adds to the pain..Avoiding talking about the cause of pain and thinking more about the solution seems like something that appeals more to me so I guess I should ponder more in that perspective.
One thing I've observed about pain is that it's short lived.. mayb prolongued.. but always temporary.. ( yes it can be permanent about an irreversible loss but some things are that way.. else we would be devoid of emotion). We can't really try to be impermeable to pain. If we would we would lack emotion altogether! But what we can try and do is not think about ourselves in that period of pain. In other words we may not be able to get rid of the pain altogether, but we can definitely not make it worse if we try. The secret is not to try and actively forget about it..But to passively forget about it by getting engaged in other stuff. If we just pause and think of the people who care for us rather than the ones we have cared for and give them the well deserved time ( which they always had for us but we never realised..), the pain definitely becomes a less cumbersome phase. Often we might not realise that we might have caused pain to the person who's our shoulder in pain . Instead of self indulging in pain why not make ammends for what's been done and point our feelings in a direction where they get the respect they deserve. All we need to get rid of sadness is to think of the many reasons to be happy and in good time we'll realise which one outweighs which.

One of the amazing sights that Morecambe offered...

3 crazy buddies.. :).. shash missing..

Was a kinda chilled out day.. Day began with shash, megha and paresh with us having omelette and tea..Later on went to Morecambe Bay with Megha, Kunal Meenakshi, Naren and a host of other people.. was good fun.. Bowling.. Lasertag( where Megha proved her awesum skills..! :D).. and an awesum sight seeing spree on the bay.. photos clicked like an oscar red carpet welcome..the place was simply amazing..must visit for nature lovers ..

Vacation in calcutta..

Had a gr8 time in cal, specially coz i met with special friends like Divya after ages.. Yes the heat was overbearing at most times but wasovershadowed by the happy moments..Hogged on food like never before.. Certain unforgetable moments had the opportunity of occuring in that short period's visit itself.. all in all an amazing 2 weeks..yet again.. gr8 2 be back in lancaster...